Of all the things that happened in my life, meeting you was one of the greatest things that ever happened to me. You gave so much of yourself that I don’t even know why I deserved so much blessing. I thought that you will be my saving grace that I’ve been searching high and low.
Things were great between us, though there were a few bumps here and there, but over-all I can say we had a great time together. You helped me be who I am now and I know you wanted me to be strong and have the confidence that I still need. You made me see that there’s more to life than fairytales and happy endings.
Out of nowhere you started to drift away, not even knowing why things got out of hand. I thought maybe we’ve been spending so much time together that the mystery is no longer there. It was then I decided that maybe we need some space to figure out what we really want. That was when I went away.
Now that I came back, I thought things will be much better; you’ve been paying so much attention to me; the same attention you gave me when we first met. I thought great things are getting better; space was really the only thing we need to rekindle that special closeness we’ve once had. But that didn’t last.
Subsequently you started to drift away, for the second time around. It hurts so much that I don’t even know what I did to make you act that way. I thought it’s just a phase that you’re going through, since I’ve been gone far too long.
Then you drop the news that I never expected from you. I never thought that you’d hurt me this much, and it hurts like hell. You told me you can’t lie to me anymore, that you can’t give me what I deserve. That I deserve a whole lot more than what you’re willing to offer. You’re heart is not there anymore, it wasn’t even there to begin with.
It took me by surprise that I can’t think of any reasons why this is happening to me all over again. I thought that I maybe jinxed and I’d better stay clear from all this serious commitment stuff. And perhaps I just have to let it come to me and not look for it. I care so much about you and God knows how much I try to suppress what I truly feel.
People come and go everyday in our lives. Some for fun, others are for tears. While most simply passes you by. I don’t know where you are, maybe a little bit of everything. Whatever the case may be, you’ve touched my life like nobody has. And fate just has a mean way of teaching me that some good things never last.
Despite of what happened, I can’t find it in my heart to hate you. I’ve learned that you cannot make someone love you all you can do is be someone who can be loved and the rest is upon them. I know time will only tell, of what is in store for me. I know that eventually everything will fall right into place. And if it’s really there, love will show itself truthfully.